there is no rush

 when is the time?

now is, i guess

i dont know

but i do know

confusion is a sin

you need to get clear

but are sins

even real?

does wrong

truly exist?

i dont even know anymore

im just venting with a self impose burden of having a heightened sense of self-importance, purportedly due to the deep feelings of inferiority that are slowly but surely drifting away.....

i dont care if others can or can't, i wlll

i have to express it, it has to be expressed, it cannot be any other way,

and is that heightened sense of self-importance, or is that self-respect?

i care to find out

i dont know is a cop-out, and a defensive response

so is i dont care

and "maybe""

maybe is cool

its a euphemism for im unsure

him 

maybe

im unsure

tooo unsure

maybe ill die tomorrow

maybe the next day?

the next year? 

who knows

theres no time limit on these types of things

there is no rush

supposedly.

but i used to think that once ive made it, then life will start

BUT LIFE IS RIGHT HERE RIGHT NOWWWWWWWWWW BABY!

and it really is a pleasure to see new ground being broken

ground deserves to move too

the ground wants to know what it is like to move as well

at least that is what the ground is telling me

"YES GO AHEAD TALK YO SHIT MANE TALK YO SHIT MANE"

maybe the ground is my ancestors?

maybe my wisest ancestors are deep

buried in the fecund and fertile bosom of mother

earth, the deep and dark chthonic crescent of all life

decrescending into oblivion's firm but haughty cast of ruthless vigor?

unamiable at its very best?

https://archive.org/details/wildspiritsstron0000ande/page/63/mode/1up?view=theater

who comes out of the woodworks to talks to fools, when they have so many blasting  about in their head?

i find comfort in other people taking care of me.....

i can't take care of all of myself, by myself.

i can't tackle my self alone........

nobody can.