resolutions

 the biggest fallacy that we have in life is in dealing with a single word. Story.

Story is everything. Everything we love and hate revolves around a good story.

And shit, hey.

the story ain't gotta be any good for you to love it

some stories are shit stories

if u look at it objectively, 

you cannot tell me that Dr. Seuss's (NOTORIOUSLY KNOWN AS ONE THEODORE SEUSS GEISEL) "CAT IN THE HAT" is not a shit story, with a shit storyline, that doesn't move anywhere.

Take all the fluff, all the childish notion of mystery and awe, take all the nostalgia away.....Cat In The Hat is a very creepy, downright pedophilic manual.

Dude just happens to waltz into the room like he is prime Big Meech walking into his local strip club.

Then he introduces them to thing one, and thing two. If that isn't phallic, i dont know what is folx.

Then he takes them out of their home to ride a roller coaster?

???????????????????????????

oh wait, shit, that's green eggs and ham.

you get the point

if i interpreted the way i did now, with just pure, untrusting, fear-based, linear logic, then i can draw a million different conclusions as to why something feels bad.

but, if i throw reason out the window, as we did when we we young, and used my PURE IMAGINATION, then everrything in the cat in the hat makes lovely, wonderful sense.

but, as we can agree its all in how you see things, we can also agree that there is no right way to see things.

every way is a right way to see things. even thinking that dr seuss is a pedophile in disguise.

the world is soooooo massively huge that every single human eing can fit in their own unique strand of thought without being crushed or trampled on or STARVING FOR AIR>>>>>>MENTALLY!

we can all have our own, hand crafted, custom made, highly designed intelligence that thinks and moves and lives and breathes and believes whatever it wants.

because everything is right, there is no wrong.

save it for another day

BACK TO THE MAIN POINT.

story:

can be interpreted into a million different ways

and every way is right

because the point I am making in resolutions.

All the stories that we are ever told are false because they are linear in fashion

linear as in line

one line

boooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooop

from left to right

biggining\

miiidididdlllleee

ennnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnd

and so we judge our lives on beginning and endings that, really do not exist.

because we were told that every story hs to end a specific way

we have to know how it ends

THE END MUST ALWAYS BE ANNOUNCED



THE END CAN NEVER BE UNNANNOUNCED





THIS IS THE END

the beginning is irrelevent

IN THE BEGINNING

............................................................................................................GOD DIDN'T CARE......................

nobody cares in the beginning

they only care when its valuable enough to care about.

when they can get enough out of it to where they'll feel a slight more satisfied temporally in their ever-fleeting search for temporary gratification.

empty hole in my heaart, why does nothing I throw at you ever last?

why does nothing I toss at you, ever stick?

Why does, no matter how hard I try. No matter how much I give of myself. No matter how much I suffer, and Sacrifice, and be the bigger person, and ACTUALLY DO THE RIGHT FUCKING THINGS, I CANNOT SEEM TO MAKE ANYTHING LAST IN MY LIFE!

not my friends

not my family

i never like the same music for more than a month

i am bored of instagram two minutes after i start scrolling

the internet is so passe, i want more real life

but then real life requires real pain, and real pain hurts siooooo might as well scro;ll through tiktok 4 hours anirite???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

i cant wait till i go to sleep tonight

when i go to sleep i dont have to deal with this shit for brained world

i dont have to DEAL WITH SHIT IT DONT WANT TO DEAL WITH

its too hurt

shit too weak

im too hurt and too weak to work on my hurt

and i cant work on my hurt with other people because my hurt prevents me from trusting other people enough to work on my hurt with

so what do I DO?

well, shit,

i fitt in, right?\

THERE IS STRENGHTH IN NUMBURS, RITE?

huh?

where did everybody go......?

oh wait,

i remember

yeah

shit wasn't real

so when things hit the fan, as they alwayus do

people scatter

its a common pattern 

why?

because nobody knows

nobody knowas

nobody knows

nnonnnnnnnoooooobody knows

who they really are?

so when who they thought they were?

gets tested?

they lock up in a cycle of fear and pain

im too afraid to face my fears

its too painful to change

Why?

BECAUSE OF HOW WE VIEW FUCKING STORIES!

we dont want to admit that every single thing in pour life ends sort of unresolved.

in my life, the only things that were left resolved were linear concepts in the first place.

things like school

church

work

those things have objective principles

but if u look at these things subjectively, i remember bringing my bad day at work home a couple of times ya know?

does how I feel not count for anything?

is me being upset at work, and me being uoset at home because i was upset at work......

where is the clean cut-off?

my shift began at 10:30

I left at 6:30

its now 9:30

i am strangling my wife because she farted in bed?

oh wait, it all started with a bad breakfast

oh wait, shit no, it was a bad breakfast because me and wifey had a really nasty fight in bed

in bed fights are the worst type of fights imaginable because you are the only place you want to be in that moment, and you are arguing with the one person you want to be with, on "E".

and that was because I thought it was her birthday....

why did I forget again?

where is the beginning, where is the ending.

where are the starts, where are the stops

only in fabrications of the mind are there clear beginnings and clear endings. Real life is not so.

There are no resolutions in real life. Not in our limited, logical, linear, fear-based, hate-based thinking systems.

in the way we use our brains currently, life is just and unresolvable bundle of fragmented resolutions, MOSTLY BAD AND UNEXPECTED, where we get our assed kicked waiting for the inevitable finish line.

in reality, life is meant to be broken off. broken up. seperated. split apart. detached. and at whatever moment it is best.

i believe in good. i believe in best. I KNOW THAT EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE THAT IS WORTH LIVING I CAN NEVER TOUCH NOR EVER SEE. IT IS TASTELESS, ODORLESS, COLORLESS, SHAPELESS, FORMLESS, INAUDIBLE, IMPERCEIVABLE BY ANY SENSE.

BUT ITS THERE> AND IT DOES NOTHING BUT MAKE EVERYTHING SOAR TO HEIGHTS THAT THEY NEVER THOUGHT WERE POSSIBLE.

it doesnt need a justification, an exuse, an alibi, or a persuasive gesticulation of any kind.

it doesn't need

it doesnt want

no punishment involved

no need to resolve

because it does it for the best

and the reason why you dont understand, is because it does it for the best

and the best is just not fathomable to such a tiny human being such as you

AND!

ALTHOUGH ITS MASSIVE

IT LOVES YOU DEEPER THAN YOU COULD EVER CONCEIVE

TRUST ME\

I KNOW

IVE BEEN THERE!