Thoughts and Opinions

I took the leap, and I feel like humanity doesn't give the leap the reverence it deserves. the mushroom is the ultimate keeper of the garden, why do you think energy at the max human capacity:  nuclear bombs, are formed in the shape of a mushroom? Mother earth was giving us a hint as to the key to it all. The power to reconnect to pure bliss, pure consciousness, without any discrimination or doubt or worry fear or question as to whether we deserve it or not. We all deserve to settle for nothing less but happiness, we deserve pure bliss. Have you ever experienced pure bliss, well I have, and I am a junkie for it. It never really leaves you, only sits there within your being, and slowly but surely expands into something marvelous. Something you can believe in, because it just feels so good. Returning home feels really good. Home is really nice guys, and its not like anything you'd ever expect. I used to have a lot of confusion about life, but now I realize that life is nothing bu...

1. I can't express myself fully. the source of this doubt stems from various experiences over my childhood. not only is this doubt the most prevalent doubt of all doubts that I have. This doubt runs very deep. When I was four years old, I told my mom that I wasn't going into the bathtub. I didn't want to go and get washed. a struggled ensued. she had grabbed me and slammed me down into the tub, accidently breaking my femur. The worst part was lying to the doctor and saying that I fell down the stairs or some shit. Not only did I get punished for being myself, a rebellious twot, I also had to punish myself by not being truthful This trauma has many layers The first layer was the fact that my mother hurted me, both physically and mentally and emotionally, but although the leg healed, the emotional damage ran deep I think afterwards my whole personality shifted I became quite, reserved, withdrawn, lonely, sad, depressed, anxious. Whenever my mom raises her voice at me, to this...